it is dusty over here.

Monday, January 30, 2006

just came back from malaysia. well, just dont have the festive mood lately. went there, and slept. my mum helped me collect all my angpows. it was so boring there. and not forgettin to add, a VERY bloody one.

wanted to go to jade's hse to celebrate now, but my dear parents just dont allow. i dont see the point, cuz her hse is just 2 blocks away and yet, i cant go. how nice. i really miss her and jill. i miss teck hong, gary, jackie, aaron, johnny etc etc too. yet, i cant go. it's been a long time since i last saw all of them. really miss those days. really miss all of them. feel so guilty for not able to join them all the time.

sometimes, i feel that life's a dread. there's bound to be restrictions in everythin u do. it almost seems impossible for u to get what u want everytime. well, the truth is, u cant. we always read stories of people living happily ever after, but this does not happen all the time. i'm always tryin to work so hard, but why am i doin so?? what on earth am i tryin to achieve?? what's the whole purpose huh?? and at the end of the day, who do i actually have to support me when i need them??

she told the story ... 11:41 PM