Tuesday, October 24, 2006
it's been a long time since i last blogged. my blog has been stagnant for quite a while. 10 more days and it's the start of A level, and im not even prepared. damn me for being so slack. have to work extra hard now if i wanna get into a uni. it sucks.
i really cant help but feel like shit. guess it's the stress. i feel so depressed and gets irritated easily by any slightest thing. it feels so suffocating and difficult to breathe. i'd always felt left-out but this feeling had become so overwhelming lately that i dont know how to handle. everyone ard me seems to hv one closest pal but who do i hv?? i dont know. i just feel like im alone. i feel like talkin to somebody abt what im feelin inside but i dont know what to say, and who to talk to. i just dont know how to tell them my inner feelings. what happened in the end is most probably me keepin it to myself with nobody truly understand what i feel or think. it stinks.
i just miss jo alot. i really do. but i know that chances of her to be back in singapore, to stay with me, is slim. i miss her so badly that i just cant stop my tears from flowing whenever i thought of her. what else can i do other than to cry to myself? i have no idea at all. just hope that this feeling will go away soon.
she told
the story ...
5:00 AM
